25th November 2011

Well, its been quite some time since the last time I updated my blog,

Without me realising, I have been living in Singapore for almost 6 months,

I do miss my hometown (Ipoh) badly,

But the more I miss that place, the more I don't wish to go back.

There is a reason for every single thing I do,

Is just I never mention because I never wish anything in return.

Friends, I always thought that friends and love can last forever,

But since the day I came here,

I've learnt to live alone,

It will be Christmas in 1 month time,

And then it will be Chinese new year.

I really hope that time can pass slower,

As time passes, those feelings became stronger,

The more I wish to forget, the more I remember.

Promises that have been made, and broke by the same person.

Pictures that I kept, notes that I wrote, and notes that I typed for years.

In this 6 months time,

I've been facing different people,

I slowly know how ugly the world is.

I told myself, Even though the world is ugly, I will still be me.

I have to face everything even its hard to go through.

I will not show the world my true feelings.

Everyday when night comes,

I will always close my eyes and then open it after 3 seconds hoping that its only a dream.

How silly i am.

In glad you are happy.

21st October 2011

{It suits my feelings}

Keyshia Cole

Been Sitting Thinking, About You And I

& Wondering Why We're Not Getting Along.

So Frustrated 'cause What We Had Was A Happy Home.

I Don't Know What The Situation Is,

But I Can Tell In The Way We Kiss.

We Don't Talk No More,

It Feels Better When I'm Alone.

Sometimes I Feel Like There's No Getting Through To You,

Like You Don't Appreciate All That I Do.

But You Gotta Show Me That You Want Me To Stay

Don't Turn & Walk Way.

[Chorus:]

Baby, I'm Slowly Fallin' Out Of Love With You,

I Don't Know What To Do.

How Did We End Up Here This Way.

What Are We Gonna Do?

I'm Slowly Fallin' Out.

Baby We Trippin' On Silly Things.Boy,

I Need You To Meet Me Half Way.

If You Want Me To Be With You.

I Remember When I'd Be With My Friends

You Checked On Me, And Made Time To Call.

But How Things Have Changed.

Now I Don't Here From You At All.

Sometimes I Feel Like There's No Getting Through To You,

Like You Don't Appreciate All That I Do.

But You Gotta Show Me That You Want Me To Stay

Don't Turn & Walk Way.

[Chorus:]

Baby, I'm Slowly Fallin' Out Of Love With You,

I Don't Know What To Do.

How Did We End Up Here This Way.

What Are We Gonna Do?

I'm Slowly Fallin' Out.

Baby We Trippin' On Silly Things.Boy,

I Need You To Meet Me Half Way.

If You Want Me To Be With You.

Don't Let Your Pride Get In The Way

On Something We Worked So Hard

Don't Throw It Away

I've Been Tryna Make You See

Everything You Need,

Is Right Here With Me.

Sometimes I Feel Like There's No Getting Through To You,

Like You Don't Appreciate All That I Do.

But You Gotta Show Me That You Want Me To Stay

Don't Turn & Walk Way.

Baby, I'm Slowly. Don't Turn & Walk Away.

[Chorus:]

Baby, I'm Slowly Fallin' Out Of Love With You,

I Don't Know What To Do.

How Did We End Up Here This Way.

What Are We Gonna Do?

I'm Slowly Fallin' Out.

Baby We Trippin' On Silly Things.

Boy, I Need You To Meet Me Half Way.

If You Want Me To Be With You.

100 facts bout HonSum

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: Plain Water

2. Last phone call: Her

3. Last text message: Caryn (god sister)

4. Last song you listened to: CNY songs

5. Last time you cried: Last Month

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: No

7. Been cheated on: 4months ago

8. Kissed someone and regretted it: NO

9. Lost someone special: NO

10. Been depressed: For sure

11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope. (If vomit got la)

LIST TWO FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. Black

13. Blue

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2011)

14. Made a new friend: Yup.

15. Fallen in love: YES/NO not sure !

16. Laughed until you cried: yes! Sing Chee with the cucumber seed!

17. Met someone who changed you: Nope. No one can change me

18. Found out who your true friends were: No

19. Found out someone was talking about you: I'm not god okay ?

20. Kissed anyone on your friend's list accidentally : NO!

ABOUT YOU

21. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Half of them.

22. How many kids do you want to have: minimum = 1 , maximum = 1

23. Do you have any pets: DIED !

24. Do you wanna change your name: Nope

25. What did you do for your last birthday: Just ate a piece of cake

26. What time did you wake up today: 3.00pm

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Eating roti boom

28. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Nothing

29. Last time you saw your Mother: 5 or 6 months ago ? ( need to wait for 2 more years )

30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish that i never exist ?

32. What are you listening to right now: Kelly calling me cisin ?

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Nope

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Nope

35. Most visited webpage: Facebook, Youtube, Blogger

36. What's your real name: Adrian Lee Hon Sum

37. What's your nickname: Adrian, Sum, Ah Han, HONBABI !

38. Relationship Status: Doesn't matter

39. Zodiac sign: Gemini

40. Male or female: Male

41. Elementary school: St. Michael

42. Middle School: St. Michael

43. High school/college: Still waiting for result la wei

44. Hair colour: Black But Brownish

45. Long or short: Short

46. Height: 180cm

47. Do you have a crush on someone: Not sure. Cold Blooded wert

48: What do you like about yourself: Nothing !

49. Piercings: Both side of my ears

50. Tattoos: No way !

51. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery: Yes

53. First piercing: Form 3

54. First best friend: Kwan Kar Fai

55. First sport you joined in: Basketball

56. First vacation: Kuala Lumpur

58. First pair of trainers: trainers? I never gt trained before frm any pair~

59. Eating: Nasi Pataya

60. Drinking: Water

61. I'm about to: Meet Zhao Gong

62. Listening to: Kelly Mumbling

63. Waiting for: Chinese New Year, Ang Pau, wear new clothes

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids: Cincai

65. Get Married: after I gt 30 years old, ask me tis question again~

66. Career: Still Planning

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes: Both

68. Hugs or kisses: Neither

69. Shorter or taller: Not too tall not too short. (i dont want to be like sing chee)

70. Older or Younger: depends on wat~ myself, I hope i'm always keep in YOUNG

71. Romantic or spontaneous: Neither

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: BOTH

73. Sensitive or loud: depends on the situation

74. Hook-up or relationship: Neither

75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Both is aso quite Terrible ==

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger: NO !

77. Drank hard liquor: Yea

78. Lost your glasses/ contact: I dun use both cz my eyesight is perfect :)

79. Sex on first date: LOL ! NO ! KANASAI !

80. Broken someone's heart: I think i'm the one who kena

82. Been arrested: For going to cyber cafe

83. Turned someone down: Not sure

84. Cried when someone died: Yes. My Father

85. Fallen for a friend: Dont Know

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: No

87. Miracles: No. It dont even exist.

88. Love at first sight: Never ( need to understand more about the person first, thats the most secure way )

89. Heaven: Tak Tau

90. Santa Claus: No

91. Kiss on the first date: No

92. Angels: No

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No

95. Did you sing today: Yes

96. Ever cheated on somebody: Yes

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go: When my parents were beside me

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be: When my mother came back to Ipoh

99. Are you afraid of falling in love: Yes

100. Posting this as 100 truths: Definitely Truths

28th January 2011

Got fucked by her today and this shall be the last time.

I promise that i will get out from her life.

Even from her sight.

Hoping that tomorrow will be a better day.

AND

Went to the cinema yesterday with my friends (Kelly, Penny, Yen Wei) for movie !

Watched (天天好天) with them.

At night, forced Kelly to finish her Roti Tisu.

ONE LAST THING !

I think its time to put down everything and forget everything about her.

Nothing much to write.

So, goodnight everyone.

18th January 2011

Ahurrrrrm ! Got my car license at last !

huhhhhhh. Need to work tomorrow (felt lazy to go to work)

But anyway, can get money so that i can hang out with friends.

Ermmmm. Always went to 'Yum Cha' with my friends recent.

Honestly, i like that kind of lifestyle.

ANDDDDDDD..........

ITS TIME TO CHANGE MY HAIRSTYLE !

i prefer short hair lo.
(Looks Smarter)

HAHA !

Ermm. nothing much to write here.

So..... I'm gonna put a big full stop here.

HAHA !

Btw. thanks for my friends for accompanying me.

I dont feel lonely anymore.

FULL STOP !

26th December 2010

Its the 26th of December 2010.

Christmas ended.

But one thing for sure.

My memories wont end. :)

UGHHHHHHH !

I still felt lonely. Hate this kind of feeling.

Stayed at home, facing my walls.

I'm getting crazy.

And one thing.

I cant wait for New Year.

Counting down. 5, 4, 3, 2, 1........

HAHA !

6 more days to go and i have to be alone for 6 days !

I really hope that there is a person who understand how i feel.

I'm sure that this person will never appear in my life.

25th December 2010

Merry Christmas !

Its Christmas today and I had a great night yesterday.

Its the first time i celebrate Christmas.

(unbelievable right ?)

Erm. Met some new friends.

(Kelly, Wai Mun, Evelyn, Sherilyn, Penny, Sing Chee, Siew Jun, Johnny)

Going to celebrate Happy New Year also.

Felt happy. Friends. Thanks a lot.

Guess what. WE DRANK A LOT OF BEER !

All of them were drunk. (ngek ngek)

Ermmmmmm.

I really hope this kind of lifestyle will never end. :(

ADDED THEM IN FACEBOOK !

And one thing. This is the first time i felt so happy.

ANYWAY..



THANKS FRIENDS !

24th December 2010

Ermmm. Its Christmas Eve today.
Guess whats my feelings ?
Erm. happy, lonely, moody and i cant wait for tonight.
Gonna be insane tonight.
BEER !
OOPS ! i'm under 18. Haha
She texted my last night.
I wanted to reply her.
But i cant. (out of credit)
Haizzzzz.
But i hope one thing.
I really hope that she can live happily.
I hope that the feeling when i'm with my friends can overcome the feeling of sadness.
:(

23rd December 2010

Ahemmmm ! i'm back ! Realising that its been months since the last time i updated my blog.

Straightened my hair. EUUUUU ! look more ugly now.

WOW ! tomorrow is going to be a happy day for me. going to my friend's house to have fun.

its Christmas Eve man ! Told my self not to think of her. Hon Sum !

You can do it ! LEI DAK GEH !

And one thing. Did you guys know that i'm rotting ?

OMG !

Stuck at home and do nothing. just like an idiot ! haha !

Maybe i am.

Cant wait for tomorrow.

Erm. Went to parade yesterday with Sing Chee, Siew Jun, En- Cui and two of her friend.

And guess what ? I saw Evon and Mei Kuan.

LOL !

Went to WHY WHY and posted something on the wall.
( they name it as a blog )

Wrote something funny there.

HAHA ! the most important thing is......

I realise that my voice really sucks after we went to K-box.

ISH !


ONE LAST WORD !
Lee Hon Sum ! Its Time To Let Go And Move On !

♥ This Song Damn Muchie !!

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛

hu die zha ji ci yan jing

才学会飞行

cai xue hui fei xing

夜空洒满了星星

ye kong sa man le xing xing

但几颗会落地

dan ji ke hui luo di

我飞行 但你坠落之际

wo fei xing dan ni zhui luo zhi ji

很靠近 还听见呼吸

hen kao jin huan ting jian hu xi

对不起 我却没捉紧你

dui bu qi wo que mei zhuo jin ni

你不知道我为什么离开你

ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni

我坚持不能说放任你哭泣

wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi

你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨

ni de lei di xiang qing pen da yu

碎了满地

sui le man di

在心里清晰

zai xin li qing xi

你不知道我为什么狠下心

ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin

盘旋在你看不见的高空里

pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li

多的是 你不知道的事

duo de shi ni bu zhi dao de shi

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛

hu die zha ji ci yan jing

才学会飞行

cai xue hui fei xing

夜空洒满了星星

ye kong sa man le xing xing

但几颗会落地

dan ji ke hui luo di

我飞行 但你坠落之际

wo fei xing dan ni zhui luo zhi ji

很靠近 还听见呼吸

hen kao jin huan ting jian hu xi

对不起 我却没捉紧你

dui bu qi wo que mei zhuo jin ni

你不知道我为什么离开你

ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni

我坚持不能说放任你哭泣

wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi

你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨

ni de lei di xiang qing pen da yu

碎了满地

sui le mandi

在心里清晰

zai xin li qing xi

你不知道我为什么狠下心

ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin

盘旋在你看不见的高空里

pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li

多的是 你不知道的事

duo de shi ni bu zhi dao de shi

我飞行 但你坠落之际

wo fei xing dan ni zhui luo zhi ji

你不知道我为什么离开你

ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni

我坚持不能说放任你哭泣

wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi

你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨

ni de lei di xiang qing pen da yu

碎了满地

sui le man di

在心里清晰

zai xin li qing xi

你不知道我为什么狠下心

ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin

盘旋在你看不见的高空里

pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li

多的是 你不知道的事

duo de shi ni bu zhi dao de shi

♥ 9th October 2010 ♥

Its Saturday today and i'm not going to school.

I'm having undang test.

ughhh, hope that i'll pass.

Watched 戀愛通告.♥ that movie damn much !

and things that i have to worry is....

SPM, HER.

Sigh.. she admitted yesterday because of cyst on her eye.

and i'm fucking worry about her.

huhhhhhh.

♥ 20th Spetember ♥

20th September. i started to sick. fever, sore throat.

Cant even close my eyes.

Images keep on appear in my mind.

I dont even know that i love her or hate her.

huh..

a new boyfriend within a month.

I promised myself.

I wont ever trust anyone anymore !

NEVER !

♥ 19th September ♥

Holiday ended !

Time passes and without noticing.

i've been living without her.

and you know what happened ?

she text me and told me that she had a new boyfriend.

i waited for her.

and now ?

I should delete everything about her from my mind ?

loved her almost 3 years.

she deleted everything about her.

even her blog, photos, everything.

it really hurts.

current mood: moody !

i finally realize something.

TRUE LOVE NEVER EXIST !

NEVER !

♥ 12th September ♥

Went to jusco yesterday with my friends.

what a boring day.

walked here and there.

doing nothing.

but at least i can spend time with my friends and i wont think so much at home.

doing everything alone.

mooncake festival is coming soon.

AM I GOING TO CELEBRATE MOONCAKE FESTIVAL ALONE ?

♥ 27thAugust ♥

Yippy ~ Trial's finally over.
But i still have to prepare for spm. Ish.
Revision Revision Revision.
I need to improve myself within this period.
Went to the cinema with her yesterday.
We watched the movie named "Street Dance".
Jeng like hell lo.
and one thing.
i argued with her yesterday.
Sad and moody like hell.
and now.
everything remain calm.
I Love Her !
"seldom online"

♥ 6thAugust ♥

Its been weeks since the last time i updated my blog.

less online nowadays.

honestly, life without her sucks.

felt moody almost everyday.

she added me back in facebook.

i approved. but then i deleted her.

i'm afraid that i saw something that i dont like.

i love her. and i'm afraid of her too.

there's a scar on my heart and its hard for it to heal.

what i hope is. you. shirley wong. happy.

i want you to be happy. that is what i wan all the time.

i dont mind if i'm the one who get hurt.

do anything you like. i'm fine as long as you're happy.

tears dropped*

but one thing. do remember. you're always in my heart.

i'll never forget days we spent together.

i can hardly remember the moment i put both of my hand on your face.

i can still remember how warm your face was.

its time for me to let go.

i'm imperfect.

you can find a better one. better than me.

i believe that one day you will found someone that wont make you drop your tears.

not like me.

I Sealed My Heart.

no one can enter my heart anymore.

♥ 27thJuly ♥

its 8.24am now. yes. i skipped school. i dont feel that i'm myself anymore.

life without her sucks. when i'm with her. i got the strengh to move on and work harder.

and now. i'm not the honsum everybody knows anymore. ANYMORE ! life turns meaningless.

I hate this kind of lifestyle. i hate this kind of feelings. someone please. please tell me what to do ?

i should keep on working hard ? or turn worst. I Love Her. i tried my best not to think of her. but i cant. I CANT ! maybe i should accept the fact that she dont love me anymore. I can still remember what she told me before. I can still remember the moment she share her feelings with me. I appreciate that. now, i can just type everything here but not telling her. I Hate Myself. Honsum died on 22ndJuly2010. What i hope now is, Shirley Wong, you must be happy.

The End.

♥ 23rd July ♥

its her birthday today. and she dont even reply my message.

dropped my tears. Its like thousands of knife cut through my heart.

but its okay. i need to be strong, tough.

i dont want to show her that i'm unhappy.

thats all for today.

i'm not in the mood of blogging.

♥ 22thJuly ♥

11.50pm. its her birthday in about 10 more minutes.

i hope i'm the first person who wish her happy birthday.

today was a bad day for me. tons of bad news waiting for me.

i know its i'm possible for me to get on with her now.

I Love Her.

I Miss Her So Much.

I Wish I Could Hug Her And Wish Her Happy Birthday.

but it doesn't matter anymore.

maybe she'll be more happy without me.

and i know its time to put a full stop for everything.

never felt regret for loving her this long.

(17thJanuary2008 - 22ndJuly2010)

(918days)

I Love You

♥ 17th July ♥

Sigh. its saturday today. She went to Lost World. i wanted to follow but..

its her birthday on this Friday.

i wanted to save money to get a present for her. =(

keep on telling myself not to go.

I'm worry bout her.

I'm alright as long as she's happy.

Sigh.

Current Mood = Extremely Moody.

♥ 15thJuly ♥

Watched Twilight Eclipse Yesterday =D

One Word To Describe.

JENG !

(NEXT AIM)

Resident Evil Afterlife.

The Last Airbender.

The Sorcerer's Apprentice.

ngek ngek.

♥